I’m sick of seeing things on tv or in stores that encourage people to try weight loss diets and shit. Like damn America, instead of telling people to eat your food for x amount of months why not encourage them to eat healthy for life. it’s a much better weight loss plan if you ask me.

I got my period for the first time in 4 months and my hormones are going freakin crazy. The smallest things will piss me the f off.

I hate this stupid fucking feeling

And no matter how hard I tried to keep going without letting anything bother me, it just kept getting worse.

*sigh…….

:/

If you want to know what i’m doing today, what time i work/go to school, or see if you can get a ride somewhere, call me ONCE and ask all your questions at one time. Don’t call me THREE frickin times in 2 hours. I understand that you don’t drive and you need things done by me that you can’t do yourself sometimes, BUT I GOT MY OWN THINGS TO GET DONE TOO. plus, you got your son at home. stop letting him do whatever he wants and make him help you out a little bit. I’M BUSY.

I’ve kinda had a crush on you ever since that one summer we met back in high school. Now that I work with you and might see you more often I start to remember why. Seeing you all the time at work sounds like a great time, however, it might lead me to feeling things that I just don’t feel ready for.

I was doing just fine until you came. I was happy on my own and i didn’t necessarily feel the need to have anyone around. But now you’re the only thing that’s been on my mind. You’re the only one i’m really looking forward to seeing right now. and that might not even happen. 

I know i’m in no place to judge you or your relationship but I just need to get some things off my chest.

From what you told me about you and your girlfriend, I don’t understand why you still want to be with her. I understand that you love her and you even admitted that you’re whipped and can’t let her go. You said that just the thought of being with her makes you happy. I understand… yet I don’t. She’s the one that cheated on you, yet you’re the one that can’t be trusted? She deleted all the girls phone numbers from your contact list and you can’t even say hi to us when you’re with her. You’re literally on a leash. How, in any way, shape, or form, does that make you happy? Since you went back out with her, you can’t even be yourself. Don’t tell me she makes you happy, then go telling me that you’re going to kill yourself. I want to be able to be your friend and not worry about your girlfriend being on your case about it. I want to be able to hang out with you, without you getting a call that would ruin your whole mood. I want to be your friend; without any conditions. I don’t want to be the reason for your heartbreak… 

I wouldn’t say I understand what you’re going through or even know you well enough to tell you what you should do. But, honestly, throughout this semester I saw sides of you that I never thought I’d see; and you became someone I really genuinely care about. It’s just sad that I feel like I have to hide it..

In a way it upsets me that you’re with her. No, i’m not jealous. My relationship with you remains platonic. But I can’t stand seeing you unhappy. I want to do something about it but I can’t because you’re putting it on yourself. I can’t watch you cause yourself unhappiness… but what else can I do?

and no, it’s not just because everyone is starting to join tumblr.

it’s because almost everything i see on my dashboard is old. every status on facebook is something i seen on tumblr months ago.  everything seems dull and nothing appeals to me anymore. at least, not as much as it did 2 years ago…

it’s old to me, and new to you.

boo

• psychology final exam
• math final exam
• Final English essay
• Informative Speech Outline and Speech
• Speech video
• work
• Soccer
• jury service?
• a;lskdjgoaifglksdf

my mom can’t make up her mind about the Philippines, so i’ve finally lost all hope of going there this summer. My hopes went up then down one too many times. 

I’m going back to the original plan and going to Seattle for my cousin’s graduation instead. If only she’d answer my calls or texts. 

but it’s good to be back home :D

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fml